Thursday, April 23, 2009

4/23/09

So, sometimes I feel like my mind is totally obsessed with the idea of adoption. I recently found out that a young girl at school is pregnant. She is wanting to put her baby up for a closed adoption. I know it's early and the odds of it being a girl are 50/50. But I'm finding myself watching her in the halls hoping that this will be our baby! It's crazy because, deep down I'm thinking that God is still wanting us to adopt from outside our country. But then there's the hint of an option locally and ofcourse it will cost less with less wait....and I'm obsessed!
I know that I totally need to be praying about this and listening to God and not my head. So, that's what I will be doing! I will stop obsessing and just know that God already planned our adoption and he knows exactly where our little girl will come from! It's in HIS hands and I can't make any changes!

Friday, April 17, 2009

4/17/09

Once again, baby sister was in the conversation tonight! Amber and I were making cupcakes for Kim's shower and Tony said we could do that again in 4 years when she got here! What ever! I am totally praying that it won't take that long to add to our family!
In 4 years, I will be 38! Seriously? I can't believe it's that close! I don't want to be a new mommy again when I'm that old! I'm thinking she will need to be here in the next 2 to 2 1/2 years! I'm always thinking about her and I don't think I can wait that long!
I'm trying not to rush it in my head though...the sooner she gets here...the older Brady and kaden will be and we just can't have them growing up fast!